So I am in love with a man who cannot love me. Not sure how I get myself into these situations. I wish there was a way that I could get out. He is suffering from the loss of his wife, a wife who chose to leave her family and husband for a life of being single to find, as she told him, "someone to grow old with." I have watched him over the years try hard to save his marriage, even tried to find ways to help him save his marriage, but it ended anyway. Now, here we are, I am seeing him but can't have him. I watch him hurt, a pain that i do not really understand as no one has ever loved me like that. I would not leave him as I would never want to give him the pain of someone else leaving him. The pain in his eyes causes pain in my heart as I have not way to ease his pain. I know that time will heal him, he will and is finding a way back into the world, finding himself and is way to be happy again on his own. But will that ever in the future include me. I am here for him with all that I can give. But I hope someday to be the woman he looks at with love in his eyes as I look upon him. Is it possible? No one else has ever loved me as such. Will this thing happen for me?